sixfeetfree i can't imagine how you must feel, i mean, my mother had cancer too, but she's alive, a little too fat but still with our family.
i'm not the best person to say anything about that kind of thing just, u know, you have to move forward, even though you might not feel like you have the strength to move on, that is just the thought of the moment, next day, week or even month you'll just realise that stuff happens and it's not a good thing, and good stuff won't just start to happen just because terrible things have already did happened.
i'm not religious, i see the world as a machine, i don't believe in destiny, i don't believe things happen for a reason, i believe people make their own path, what they want to do is their choise to do and not somebody else's. what happens to people or to anything just simply happens. why does it always have to be because God said so? if you look at diseases in a scientific way, instead of, it was meant to happen, it all mkes more sense, like in cancer, i could have brought up something diferent, but we're talking about cancer, if anyone has cancer cells your gonna have cancer, is as simple as that! why you get those cells? is not that complicated, from food, sun, maybe cause your whole family had those cells, not because somebody, somehow made it happen, just because it had to, that makes no sense to me, but that's just me... so if you're religious, sixfeetfree, than you have a totally diferent perpective wich i don't understand, but that's ok, i'm not the kind of people that imposes their beliefs, i think everybody should co-exist,
just, you know, i was trying to make death a little more technical and maybe a little easier to handle, i think.