Originally Posted by Steven.
never had a relationship, never had a proper first kiss let alone anything even more haha and I'm completely fine with it tbh.
that said I think I am in love with love if that makes sense? like its such a beautiful thing to be able to love someone and/or having someone love you, and it makes me really warm and fuzzy to see people in a happy relationship and all, but despite that I don't see myself in a relationship for a longgggg time nor do I feel like I want or need one right now
Oh yeah, that makes perfect sense. I think I'm the same way. I've never had a real relationship but I have had quite a few hookups. During my first two years of university, that's basically all I would do.
I think it's because I had really poor self-esteem then.
There was this guy I really like a lot but he recently send me a text saying that he choose "the scriptures" over any feelings he had for me.