[jrollaneres25]

Waiting to Inhale: Chapter 3




Taruy is the first person and the ONLY person I have opened up to and told about me being attracted to dudes.
It was a bad move.
You see, I slowly, but surely figured out that Taruy likes me.
We go to the same church, in the same youth group, and sing in the same Youth Choir.
We've known each other for like 8 years.
So when he called me up one night and told me that not only did he know that about me, but he could help me get delivered from it, it was a relief!


My 2 brothers that are like, GUYS and my 3 Uncles are all College grads on Football scholarships. So there's no "punks" in our family.
So I've kept a hard exterior all my life, but I've always known that I am a nice, sensitive person.
So when Taruy called me and said he'd help me it was the breath of fresh air I had been "waiting to inhale" all my life up to this point.
But as the days went by and our conversations veered away from me being helped, I took notice that this guy just lied to me.
But I didn't care. I was just relieved that I finally had someone to share my personal thoughts with.

ME: You did What?
Taruy: I'm sorry, but now that I'm the "Youth Director" I have to tell Pastor Damien everything.
Me: What did you say? (As my voice begin to rise)
Taruy: I--I told him what you told me....
Me: TARUY! OMG! I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU!
Taruy: Dante I--I'm Sor--
Me: Hey I gotta go.
Taruy: But I--[CLICK]

I can't believe he just did that!
You see, Jarian is one of the younger youth in the youth group.
15yrs old. 5'8 and about 160. He's a football player on the Highschool's JV squad. Well, he will be when school starts.
Jarian is a fine dude. Farreal.
He's one of the exceptions to being a teenager, but looking grown already. Had more facial hair than I did and was more developed physically than me, especially dat ass.
The thing about him and I kinda happened suddenly.
We would be in bible study or at youth fellowships, and he would flirt with me big time.
At first I didn't know how to respond to it and thought he was just being flirtatious by nature, but it grew and grew.
We would wrestle alot and we would always find a way to touch each other without it being to notiecable.

One time we had to go sing at this church, so we all got on the Church van.
We went to the place, sang, and then it was time for our Youth leaders to take us all home.
I sat all the way in the back of the van, and Jarian moved his way back there as well, playing it off with his camera.

Jarian: Hey ya'll I got Pictures!
All: I don't wanna see em! Ooo let Me see! So!

At first I was in the back with Deitra, Jarian, and Princeton.
The got dropped off first and then it was just us.
Now Jarian, this dude was a sneaky one. He initiated everything we did.
He was the flirt.
He was also the first dude I had ever had something like this with.
As we sat in the back and music was playing while the others where conversing, Jarian whispered to me...

Jarian: so what's up?
Me: What u mean?

Jarian put his hand on my thigh and then moved it closer to my d***k.
I got an instant rise.

Me: Say what u--
Jarian: Shut up!
Me: I don't know about this...
Jarian: What, I'm just wanna feel on it

He moved his hand closer and then he grabbed my d***k.

Jarian: Damn you big

I looked around nervously. I got anxious and was sure that we would get caught. There were 2 other youth sitting right in front of us.
But they were totally oblivious to what was going on and in their own little world.
Jarian noticed that I gave in to the temptation and then he begin to pull my d***k out my pants

Me: Jarian waa--
Jarian: Dayum nigga!

I was really on edge and everything was moving too fast..out of my control!
Jarian moved his head towards my d***k and wrapped his lips on the head.
I quicky pulled him up.

Me: Yo, not here. no--not here.

Jarian pulled up and was content. Whew! That was a close one.
This dude is Wild!
If I'm not careful this dude is gonna get me in trouble!

And little did I know, things were about to blow up in my face...