Fuck! Long time, no update.

I haven't updated this thing in a long time. I guess I haven't had an awful lot to talk about.

Exams are drawing ever closer, and for once, I am worried. I have been tanking lessons more and more....just not taking part, showing general lack of interest etc. Its a poor attitude to have, but nowadays I can't be bothered with lessons. I need to sort myself out or failure will be inevitable.

I am talking a little more often to the girl I like. But..I dunno. A few months...

Edward.

School. Yay.

I must be the only freak in the universe who enjoys school more than holidays. But I do. Not for work, but for being around so many friends all day. Beats sitting indoors.

On a sad note, the girl I love hates me. Sad. Such is life.

I have exams in 6 weeks. Stress will likely be unbearable, and trolling on WTAworld will be inevitable.

Thats all for now. Ciao.

Edward.

C'mon!

My mood has definately improved in the last few days. I don't feel as glum and self depreciating as I usually do.

I really enjoy my psychologist sessions. My sister joined us for my last appointment and it was great. However, my father will not show up to any, because he does not believe in depression and mental illness and believes I have nothing wrong with me. Thats sad, but I can live with it, as long as sister and mother care.

I really hate holidays. Me and my friends...

Edward.

Emptiness.

I feel empty. I feel I have no purpose in life. I feel bored and lonely.

I need to return to school. This home is killing me.

Edward.

Argh.

I'm such a worthless, fucking retard. I hate myself. One of these days, I will top myself and that will be it.

Sorry to the wankers who only gave my blog a 3 star rating. Sorry that I'm not fucking interesting enough for your dumb asses.

Edward.