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RonnieB33
Mar 12th, 2008, 09:19 AM
For the past two years, I've participated in this forum about Maria Kirilenko. What started out as a simple interest in a tennis player who was very attractive has turned into an obsession that has made me do things that I shouldn't be doing, especially as a married man with two small children and an employee who should only be using his computer for work purposes. Reading this blog as well as another blog about Maria Kirilenko always consituted one of the first two things I would do when I logged into my computer at work. While I have not been fired from my job, I'm headed down that path as more of my time is spent figuring out Kirilenko's future ranking or "watching" her matches through the Live Scoring feeds when she plays or browsing for pictures and videos of her when the time should've been spent in productive ways at work or even doing errands that needed to be done for my family. The worst of it all was ditching work for four hours to watch Kirilenko play live when she was in L.A. I got away with it in the sense that my job didn't even know that I was gone, and my wife never asked where I was that day. I could've gotten away with it forever, but that is not the type of husband I strive to be, and when my wife finally pressed me, I finally told what should've been revealed all along. I know I'm not the only fan of a tennis player who has been overly obsessed. We all know what happened to Monica Seles. I've tried to keep this as a hobby, but is it really a hobby if I couldn't even share this anyone else outside of this blog, even to my own brother who is also a big tennis fan. Obviously, there was something wrong with how I was behaving, or else it would be so easy to share. I'm sure if I was up front from the start, it might not have been a big deal. My wife openly admits to being a fan of Marat Safin, James Blake, among others. But she doesn't go so far as to live a secret life chasing after them in tournaments, reading blogs constantly, and looking up pictures of them by herself.

Perhaps some of you in this blog can totally relate to what I'm talking about. Maybe some of you can't and wonder why I would even bring this up. I consider the latter to be blessed because they are probably blogging for the correct reasons on Maria Kirilenko.

I am saying farewell to all of you. I will never blog about Maria Kirilenko again. I certainly won't follow her outside of this blog. This I promise to myself as well as my wife. And I hope that each of you will re-evaluate why you are blogging about a tennis player when perhaps you could be doing something else. This goes not just for tennis players in general, but for anything else you may be discussing over the internet. I have yet to learn how to do such things not in an irresponsible manner. I probably have more of an obsessive personality than the next person. Perhaps if you look deeper inside of yourself, you may see that type of person inside of you too and will ACT accordingly!

Good-bye and good luck to all of you in whatever life offers you.

-- Ron

kittyking
Mar 12th, 2008, 09:28 AM
It's okay to fantasize about her, even masterbate over her if you want - give your wife the nickname Makiri if you like.Dreaming of reading blogs about her and worse effectively stalking her in tournaments is alil bit too far... I'm sure your already aware of that. My advice is for you to go down to the supermarket and get some Viagra :)

fun_chumm
Mar 13th, 2008, 06:14 AM
way to go kittyking! lol

Droolv
Mar 13th, 2008, 12:56 PM
:eek: Wow :hug: The main word here is "control" :shrug:

drgray
Mar 13th, 2008, 11:33 PM
hmm.. this is a little awk...

andrewbroad
Mar 14th, 2008, 12:02 AM
My advice for liberating yourself from an obsession:

1. Evaluate the priorities of your life. What will make you happy on your deathbed?
2. Work out predefined criteria for what you plan to do.
3. Stick to the predefined criteria. If you are unable to do this, go back to Step 1.

--
Dr. Andrew Broad
http://geocities.com/andrewbroad/
http://geocities.com/andrewbroad/tennis/

Nikkiri
Mar 14th, 2008, 09:39 AM
Wow. Good luck with everything. Sad it got so bad you feel you can't follow Maria anymore. Goodbye.

kittyking
Mar 14th, 2008, 09:43 AM
Just gotta say :woohoo: my advice looks the best so far :p

Krzysiu.
Mar 14th, 2008, 07:47 PM
Wow. I saw my life after two years.

Ronnie, you told everyone about your obsession and it's first step to control it.

I hope I would not go insane and out of my mind. But Maria is special one who make men crazy.

I'm Pole and I live among the most beautiful women (blondes for sure!) in the world. None of them affect me so much as Maria Kirilenko...

blackcrave
Mar 21st, 2008, 11:13 AM
its ok to admire someone though...

Krzysiu.
Mar 21st, 2008, 02:26 PM
its ok to admire someone though...

Though what? You see, obsession is kind of mental illness you cannot control it. The worst thing is that we don't know how to help such people.

If you admire Maria Kirilenko, it's normal. Just look at her. Don't you think so?

blackcrave
Mar 23rd, 2008, 03:54 AM
yeah just look at her and dream about her..

Krzysiu.
Mar 23rd, 2008, 01:23 PM
yeah just look at her and dream about her..

;)

only_one_maria
Apr 21st, 2008, 12:51 PM
I doubt Ronnie's problem is that uncommon. What surprises me is that he is a married man with children. Obviously Maria is amazing, but I wouldn't have thought I'd be salivating over her were I married. But then, what would I know? I never have been.

Krzysiu.
Apr 21st, 2008, 04:12 PM
I doubt Ronnie's problem is that uncommon. What surprises me is that he is a married man with children. Obviously Maria is amazing, but I wouldn't have thought I'd be salivating over her were I married. But then, what would I know? I never have been.

You are not able to know what would you do in such situation until it becomes your problem.

Zumoq
Apr 24th, 2008, 09:00 PM
Let us all hope that Ronnie can kick his obsession and get his life back on track!

That being said, there is something decidedly supernatural about this girl :angel:, something magical that can put a spell on even the most rock solid among us.

For isn't seeing Maria like sunrise after a moonless night, like a breath of fresh air after breaking the surface of murky waters, like the first flower in spring looking up through the snow, like the sweetest song you ever heard, amid all the noise, and like rain falling on parched land after a lengthy drought? :hearts:

Oh yes, isn't it all of this, and more, but still only a small but sweet taste that just leaves you craving for more, as if it was a piece of chocolate that made you ask for another, and then another, if not for the whole box?

Me, I've always been very calm and collected, balanced and independent, even-tempered and rational. :cool: I never really had any real idols or was a big fan of anybody, not even when I was young. And it's not like I've never encountered a beautiful woman before. Actually, if you haven't noticed, the world is teeming with attractive women! Anyway, I relate to women quite normally. To summarize, I shouldn't reallly be the kind of person that was vulnerable to any obsession.

And yet...

It was a couple of years ago, and I was watching the US Open. In a break, they showed a 15-second highlight from one of the smaller courts, where another match had just been finished. The match featured a player that I had not seen before, a player named Maria Kirilenko.

Oh, my God. :worship: :inlove: :angel:

That was just awesome... I tell you, guys, I was enchanted, right there, right then! :hearts:

And in time, it turns out that, not only is she stunningly beautiful and a very talented player in the great sport that tennis is, but she also has a very nice voice (which is important to me, since I have a keen, musical ear), and by all accounts, she is also a very nice and sympathetic person! :kiss:

Maria is an, I'd say, an experience that goes above and beyond any plain and simple sexual attraction. The experience is beyond beauty, beyond genius and beyond any fine art that I know.

And now I follow her game, and I despair whenever she is trailing in a match :sad:, and I am overjoyed when she wins. :banana:

And I guess that behaviour is quite silly - and it's certainly out of character. Not only am I old enough to be her father, but I have never met this person that I adore so much, and neither will anything I ever do have any influence on her life whatsoever.

But what do I know - maybe we all have it in us to go "click" like this with somebody, and at an unpredictable moment in life?

Well, at least, I guess I'd better not meet Maria, ever. Chances are, I would just fall hopelessly in love, and I do not know if I could bear her absence afterwards. And do you think the memory of her could just be so easily erased? Oh no, it would be like being traumatized, but in a good way.

So I understand now, that it takes quite a bit of strength to remain on the right side of the border between madness and sanity. I extend my sympathies to those obsessed and to those that have strayed onto a dangerous path, but you will have to muster that strength to regain a life of your own, any life worth living. For the truly obsessed does not know whether he is in heaven, or whether he is being tormented in hell while being shown a video from heaven. :devil:

As for myself, I guess I am not truly obsessed - clinically speaking. It's not like I would ever let down my family and my friends, or jeopardize my job. And neither do I have any ambition to metamorph into a drooling, mindless stalker.

And I shall not call this state of mind "love", not for a woman that I have never met in person. But I will say that I am extremely fascinated by Maria. :worship:

Oh, well. Maybe I'm just a ranting, delusional, pathetic, old fool. But actually, I am very grateful that I was fortunate enough to live in the Age of Maria, and that technology had advanced far enough for me to be able to witness, with my own eyes, in my own home, this true, Wonder of the World. :worship:

Go Maria! :smooch:

-- Big Z.

Krzysiu.
Apr 24th, 2008, 11:51 PM
First of all, welcome to Maria forum Zumoq. I hope you'll stay with us cuz your writing is truly beautiful. I'm sure you've got not only musical ear but also other talent. You're some columnist for sure :]

My first meeting with Maria was quite similar to yours. I saw her in newspaper, I remember date of course: 09.10.2007.

That being said, there is something decidedly supernatural about this girl , something magical that can put a spell on even the most rock solid among us. Oh yeahh...

I love your poetic metaphores ;)

only_one_maria
Apr 25th, 2008, 11:13 AM
Certainly was an interesting artcile from Zumoq. I honestly thought most people on here were teenagers or early 20's maybe. The fact that we have guys in their 30's and 40's is a real surprise to me.

My own interest began during the French Open last year. I saw a pic of Ana Ivanovic and was quite taken, so I clicked further and saw a picture of her with her doubles partner. Now no disrespect to Ana, but when I saw Maria I immediately became taken by her. So then I read more about her and see she had a love of music and seems really sweet, so I ended up here.

Krzysiu.
Apr 25th, 2008, 11:18 AM
Certainly was an interesting artcile from Zumoq. I honestly thought most people on here were teenagers or early 20's maybe. The fact that we have guys in their 30's and 40's is a real surprise to me.

My own interest began during the French Open last year. I saw a pic of Ana Ivanovic and was quite taken, so I clicked further and saw a picture of her with her doubles partner. Now no disrespect to Ana, but when I saw Maria I immediately became taken by her. So then I read more about her and see she had a love of music and seems really sweet, so I ended up here.

Makiri is a magnet. No matter you're in the age of 20 or 40. She annihilates your life anyway. :p

drgray
Apr 25th, 2008, 10:44 PM
Wow, people on this board are creepers...

antonella
Apr 26th, 2008, 02:30 AM
Wow, people on this board are creepers...


DING DING DING!! We have a Winner!!!

Nikkiri
Apr 26th, 2008, 03:30 AM
Wow, people on this board are creepers...

:haha:

Krzysiu.
Apr 28th, 2008, 07:45 AM
Wow, people on this board are creepers...

And you're one of us! :p

Destiny
May 9th, 2008, 08:53 PM
:lol:

DAVAJ MKirilenko
May 10th, 2008, 07:44 AM
I've finally started to like Maria more and then I read this.
I know her for a few years now, but I only thought it was a pretty face and that's it. Ana is my number 1 and I even didn't follow Maria so much.
Berlin is now the turning point. For sure I never hope it goes to the direction of Ron. I do hope he's ok now and learn how to control.

With Ana I learned to control it more after ever tournament I visit.
I must admit Luxembourg was maybe too much at a time for me.

You guys see me around here more. Don't let me go into the direction that it will be obsessive ;)

Krzysiu.
May 11th, 2008, 07:54 PM
You guys see me around here more. Don't let me go into the direction that it will be obsessive ;)

It not depends on you. It's out of your control. :tape:

DAVAJ MKirilenko
May 12th, 2008, 12:46 AM
It not depends on you. It's out of your control. :tape:

Being a Maria was certainly out of my control. I really don't know why it happend. But if it goes too far? Try to see the line on time.

Krzysiu.
May 12th, 2008, 08:29 AM
Being a Maria was certainly out of my control. I really don't know why it happend. But if it goes too far? Try to see the line on time.

NOBODY knows WHY, NOBODY knows HOW. :devil:

Krzysiu.
Oct 9th, 2008, 11:17 PM
Well it's a year now...

1/ It was 9th October 2007. Just after 9am. Normal working day. I was eating second breakfast and reading newspaper traditionally. Sport firstly :) There I saw her :hearts:. Charming, lovely, in sari even if I didn't know then that those yellow rags are called sari. :) She was smiling but it was something more that left a sign in my heart. That Tuesday, 9th Oct 2007 I said to myself: - Nice chick. I didn't know what had just got started.

2/ I used to have my Lovely Blonde Girl with those azuline eyes that hipnotyzed you. But our ways just falled out. Now I know that my Lovely Blonde Girl wasn't that one I searched for all of those years. My perfection was born in Moskva, over 17 month earlier than me. After this year I have no doubt. She's girl of my dreams. Brown eyes that can kill you as man, perfection in every shape, chills through your body...

3/ Maria Kirilenko was competing in Moskva tournament and the article in paper was made cuz she played against Isia Radwańska. I quickly checked the info about Russian tennis player named Kirilenko: she had awful official website with nice pics in gallery. I said then: Nice chick, I have to watch some of her matches. Previously my favourite babe in WTA Tour was Daniela Hantuchova but it was really long earlier. One year ago it was time when I had absolutely no interest in tennis after Kimi Klijsters retirement.

4/ I checked up Eurosport schedules but there weren't any matches of Maria then. I wanted to see her playing on court very much but I had no chance. Later that year I started to forget about Maria. To be honest she wasn't very important for me. Sometimes I was checking the results but she often lost the 1st rnds. :rolleyes: But then New Year came!

5/ If you're using word "Obsession" we must place it exactly on January 2008. How it started? Don't remember. I know that I had much free time and I called Maria in my mind. I visited her homepage once again and what then? I still searched to find broadcast of her matches. Due to some pics I found THIS forum. I quickly joined the community and some of you can remember that I weren't kind person. I asked every day about silly things: does Makiri have a boyfriend, does she come from planet of Venus or am I still dreaming cuz I see something unthinkably beautiful.

6/ Maria changed my life. Since Jan.2008 I thought about her PROBABLY every day. January and February were especially difficult for me. I lost energy, passion to sport... Everybody around me knew I felt in love with Makiri. They giggled cuz what they could do? When I'm looking backward now I laugh too :) This woman captured my heart and I had nothing to do with that.

7/ I was late to work due to Daniela - Maria match at AO2008. Sweetie (sorry Aussie friend...) lost and I started a battle against treating her by POLISH tennis "experts" as pretty doll who can't play tennis.

8/ My dream of meeting Maria happened very quickly. I went to Warszawa tournament special for her. Then it came that feeling some of you may had: how is it when you are meeting the girl from your dreams, just there, just then, sitting near you... I met Makiri, saw few things and were convinced that love to her is not only my illness. I met guys who didn't lose the view of her -- then I sobered up for the first time since January. I questioned myself: what the hell I expect from Maria? Answer didn't come -- I still loved her.

9/ I can't describe my feeling at the moment. Maria is just too lovely for me. Has my feeling dropped? Maybe not, maybe I'm just chilled out now.

10/ What next? Any profits of being addicted of Makiri? I started playing tennis, I put more attention on professional tennis sport. Makiri is the most beautiful woman I ever seen and I will have ever imagined. It's incredible how she wonders. I wrote about her tousands of posts, you know that. I'll try to live with her and without her -- with conviction that she's not mine.

only_one_maria
Oct 10th, 2008, 05:20 PM
I thought it was about time this thread was revived. The sadly departed Ronnie left us with a fine goodbye note. Krzysiu, I enjoyed your piece. But it's strange. Your reaction to Makiri doesn't sound that different to mine, although at the time you were puzzled by my reaction. You say you sobered up and in my case I had to face the fact that she is a reality not a fantasy and lives a life of which I am not a part. Seeing her in the flesh does make you think....

But yes, it was still nice to see her and I'll always remember that bright blonde hair, almost golden in the evening sun. Still I never had the personal meeting you managed and that might have made a difference.

By the way, what is a second breakfast? I like the sound of this Polish lifestyle.

Zumoq
Oct 12th, 2008, 01:51 PM
Very nice post, Krzysiu. A girl like Maria sure leaves her mark on a man.

I'll try to live with her and without her
Hang in there, buddy! :) You're not the only one.
---
Maria Kirilenko - the pinnacle of evolution. :hearts:

Kiriber
Oct 13th, 2008, 07:19 AM
:haha:

Krzysiu.
Oct 13th, 2008, 10:05 PM
By the way, what is a second breakfast? I like the sound of this Polish lifestyle.

I have first breakfast before I leave to work (5.30am), then at 9am it's this second breakfast :)

Hang in there, buddy! :) You're not the only one.

---
Maria Kirilenko - the pinnacle of evolution. :hearts:

It's something that still hold up my life :p

Great punchline Zumoq! :)

:haha:

:)

SOA_MC
Nov 18th, 2009, 01:29 PM
The poster really did leave :eek: (Posters usually don't when they kick up a fuss saying they will)

So we are what's left of this forum does that make us obsessed :scratch::scared:

Nikkiri
Nov 18th, 2009, 05:39 PM
I'm obsessed :) lol

WeekendeR
Nov 18th, 2009, 06:50 PM
So we are what's left of this forum does that make us obsessed :scratch::scared:

Judging by some reports somebody on this forum really obsessed:tape:

Krzysiu.
Nov 23rd, 2009, 06:01 PM
The poster really did leave :eek:

Have hope he didn't commit suicide or something. Hope he is happy with his family.:)

only_one_maria
Nov 24th, 2009, 01:53 PM
Have hope he didn't commit suicide or something. Hope he is happy with his family.:)

Well, Ronnie left for his own reasons. I must say if you look at the rankings thread he was quite the genius at working it all out.