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LeRoy.
Jan 10th, 2008, 01:23 AM
Well guys I am sorry it has taken me so long to write another blog. My life has been hectic this fall. Let me tell you what I have been doing. I have been trying to stay fit and still manage to have some time off (which I found nearly impossible) and I also have been just finding a new me.

I don't know where to start so I will start here:
Last fall around October a big change happened in my life. I decided to make sure that tennis was most important in my life next to GOD and my family, and while I was doing that I decided to rid myself of relationships that could stop me from reaching the main goal which is being the best. I did not want anything to stand in my way of doing what I do best which is playing tennis.

With that being said I went to Europe as my fans out there would know and played 4 tournaments this fall. This is more than I have played in the fall in the past 5 years!!!
Well I ended up reaching number 5 which was so cool before I fell again to number 7 (damit) and I had tons of fun doing it. But the turning point happened when I was on a plane coming back from Paris. I was thinking “did I make the right decision?” Was I right with riding myself of certain relationships?" I began to become scared and I was worried that I had made a mistake.

Then it happened I picked up this book called "Who moved my cheese" by Spencer Johnson. I was reading this one part that said "What would you do if u were not afraid?"
And than it said "there is always cheese don't be afraid to find it." Basically it was talking about being complacent and being afraid of change. I than realized that I was afraid I was afraid of change. I was afraid to move on. I was afraid I was afraid to find new cheese! I thought there was only one cheese out there but after reading that book I realized that there is all types of "cheese" out there. Now I am not talking about real cheese but cheese is whatever you make it to be. Whether or not its money, or boyfriends, or friends. There is always more out there if what u have around you. Ok I hope I am not boring you guys, but after reading this book my whole spirit and my whole life changed. I became a different person. My personal life as well as my tennis life improved. And all I do now is laugh! I love to live and laugh! It is awesome!

I would love to recommend this book to everyone out there! Don't be afraid to find new "cheese"!!!

Xxx
Serena

LeRoy.
Jan 10th, 2008, 01:25 AM
January 7, 2007
You just start dating a guy. He likes you, you like him. You guys want to spend every second together. When you are not with him you are talking to him on the phone. You have deep feelings for him. The feelings keep developing. They keep growing. You begin to think this could be it. You begin to think I really think this is it for me..... You love being together. You can't stand being without each other. You start to feel like you have never felt before, and you do things for him you have never done before. He tells you he doesn’t want to be with you and only you. He tells you he adores you. He tells you u guys were meant for each other. You care for him. You are falling for him. You take things slow. You don't want to make any mistakes. You go slower with him than you have ever done before. You don't rush to introduce him to your friends, let alone anyone else. You want it to be right. You are feeling this and you feel this could mean something.
He communicates with you. He thanks God you are in his life. You guys have fun together. You laugh together. He talks about being and becoming serious with you. He talks about his desire to love you one day. He talks about he can't imagine not being with you. You think he's falling in love with you. But you can't be 100% sure.
You guys have not said that sacred 4 letter word that starts with an "L". But you feel it deep deep in you. Deeper than you have in a long time.

You ask him "are we moving too fast"? He replies "We are just following our hearts."
You start to trust him. Something you have not done since your first heart break. How long ago was that? You wonder. Trust is something you vowed you would never do again. But slowly your heart comes out of its steel enclosure. You feel like you can trust him. You feel as if everything you went though was for a reason. And the reason was to meet him. Days turns into weeks. And he tells you about the connection you guys have in each others hearts.

Weeks turns into months and you slowly start to wean the other guys in your life out.
And than it happens. No not the "L" word. But what you have been most afraid of. What deep in your heart you have been afraid to confront. What you always suspected would happen one day sooner or later. HE STOPS CALLING. You panic. But you try to stay calm. He did this before when you first started talking, but u tried to forget it. You knew u should have not forgotten. But u tried to ignore it. He disappears for a week with no phone call. No answer to yours no nothing. Finally you hear from him. You want to rage you want to scream you want to cry. But you can't help you heart from feeling a tad bit happy.

As you begin to ask him what happened he stops you. He says "I need space". You cringe at these words. This is the very reason you begin to think why your heart was in that steel enclosure. The reason you don't put your emotions your feelings, your heart into it. Because one day it always turns in to this day. But you are already too far out you are at the point of no return, you can't come back. You can't believe, although a piece of you does believe it. Space. How many time have you heard this before? Space? Wasn’t you giving him enough? Space. Hummm you laugh because its so ridiculous. You laugh because again u knew this day would come. Why did you not listen to that little voice inside your hear telling you to "watch out". "Be careful". You laugh only because tears won't come.

You know its not you, but u cant help but look at that man in the mirror. You can't help but pick yourself apart. Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? And again and again you can't come up with the answer. Slowly as you try to focus on other things and think of other people you put you heart back into that steel case.

Tears finally come and they make you feel a little better, but the pain is piercing through your soul. The pain never hurts as bad as the first time. . But all the same you can't help but feel hopeless, foolish. Your great chance to be with your soul mate has again somehow slipped and failed.

But eventually you know you will pick yourself up. Eventually you know you will try again. And eventually you know you will find the keys to you heart, but also in the back of your mind you think.... Will it happen again.

The Daviator
Jan 10th, 2008, 01:26 AM
OMG Serena :haha: What a character :lol:

stkenyi
Jan 10th, 2008, 01:28 AM
She is more than a character. She is the fucking Serena Williams. I find it funny that she makes grammar mistakes. Just humanizes her more to me :-).

LeRoy.
Jan 10th, 2008, 01:32 AM
Serena's Top 10 Songs

Kanye West - Stronger
50 Cent/Justin - AYO Technology
Fergie - Big Girls don’t Cry
Mariah Carey - Emotions
Britney Spears - Gimmie More
Colbie Caillat - Bubbly
Kelly Rowland - Ghetto
Ne-Yo - Do You
Keisha Cole - Just Like You
Eve - Tambourine

bridgepea
Jan 10th, 2008, 01:33 AM
Oh my God. That just moved me to tears. It is like she is echoing my every thought. I broke up with my boyfriend in 1996 and to this day it still hurts because we were engaged to be married, I had just suffered a miscarriage and then we broke up. Rena, people will say that you are putting too much out there, but this is the best way to heal. Find strength in those around you and in your tennis. Know that your fans from all over the world will be cheering you on. Thanks very much for posting this. This was really from the heart. Can you post the link where you fout it please. Thanks very much

LeRoy.
Jan 10th, 2008, 01:34 AM
http://serenawilliams.com/home/

link to Serena's official website

bridgepea
Jan 10th, 2008, 01:35 AM
Thanks very much

Nico_E
Jan 10th, 2008, 01:43 AM
My god

could she be any more over dramatic if its all possible :rolleyes:

this creature cant go a day without the drama can she?

BuTtErFrEnA
Jan 10th, 2008, 12:35 PM
^who are you? :rolleyes:

BuTtErFrEnA
Jan 10th, 2008, 12:38 PM
Oh my God. That just moved me to tears. It is like she is echoing my every thought. I broke up with my boyfriend in 1996 and to this day it still hurts because we were engaged to be married, I had just suffered a miscarriage and then we broke up. Rena, people will say that you are putting too much out there, but this is the best way to heal. Find strength in those around you and in your tennis. Know that your fans from all over the world will be cheering you on. Thanks very much for posting this. This was really from the heart. Can you post the link where you fout it please. Thanks very much

i agree with you 100000%

and as for your personal thing...whether or not you are religious...there is God :)

youizahoe
Jan 10th, 2008, 03:46 PM
That's typical Serena, she's never too affraid to express or say how she feels. In some situations it's not all too good.. But in the end, we at least know she is honest about everything. Something a lot of players have it hard with.

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If I can give one tip to most people. Don't put your hope into one person, like God for example.

Succes to life is; believing in yourself and friends, those will disappoint you less than any God there is.

And I'm not breaking down religion...^^

Destiny
Jan 10th, 2008, 03:50 PM
love that she did this makes me feel a little understanding of her as a person

BuTtErFrEnA
Jan 10th, 2008, 06:57 PM
these things make her seem more human

Nico_E
Jan 11th, 2008, 01:35 AM
these things make her seem more humanYou said it

BuTtErFrEnA
Jan 11th, 2008, 12:45 PM
:rolleyes: troll alert :rolleyes: