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Jan 7th, 2008, 07:51 PM
Come Stand In My Shoes..
January 7, 2007
You just start dating a guy and he likes you and you like him right… You guys want to spend every second together, but you can't. You both have jobs that take you away from each others life. You spend hours on the phone with him. You talk to him everyday. You have deep feelings for him. The feelings keep developing. They keep growing. You begin to think this could be it. You begin to think I really think this is it for me, he’s the one....
You love being together. You can't stand being without each other. You start to feel like you have never felt before, and you do things for him you have never done before. You cook, you clean, and you help him organize. He tells you he doesn’t want to be with anyone else. He tells you he adores you. He tells you God made you for him.

You believe him. You caress him. You love him. You take things slow. You don't want to make any mistakes. You go slower with him than you have ever done before. You don't rush to introduce him to your parents; you want it to be right. You are feeling this and you feel this could mean forever. He prays with you. He thanks God you are in his life. You guys go to a place of worship together. You guys read together. He talks about being and becoming one with you. He talks about his capacity to love you. He talks about his heart can't be full without you in his life. You think he's falling in love with you. You guys have not said that sacred 4 letter word that starts with an "L". But you are desperate to say it, but you won't until he does. But you feel it deep deep in you. Deeper than you ever have before.

You ask him "are we moving too fast"? He replies "you can't force how you feel, and you can't stop your feelings, we just have a deep connection. We r not moving fast we both know how we feel for each other. We are just following our hearts." You start to trust him. Something you have not done since your first heart break. Something you vowed you would never do again. But slowly your heart comes out of its steel enclosure. You feel like you can trust him. You feel as if everything you went though was for a reason. And the reason was to meet him. The case that your heart is in gets looser each day at first, than each minute. Days turn into weeks. And he tells you about the connection you guys have in each others hearts.

Weeks turn into months and you no longer talk to anyone else just him. And then it happens. No not the "L" word. But what you have been most afraid of. What deep in your heart you have been afraid to confront. What you always suspected would happen one day sooner or later. HE STOPS CALLING. You panic. But you try to stay calm. He did this before when you first started talking, but u tried to forget it. He disappears for 2 days no phone call. No answer to yours no nothing. This is the very reason you begin to think why your heart was in that steel enclosure. The reason you don't put your emotions your feelings, your heart into any man. Because one day it always turns into this day, but you are already too far out you are at the point of no return, you can't come back. You are too far gone. You can't believe, although a piece of you does believe it.

What did you do wrong? You wonder. Was it something I said? Was it something I did? Was it the way I acted? Was I too nice? Was I too mean? What was it? You know its not you, but u cant help but look at that man in the mirror. You can't help but pick yourself apart. Were you too nice? Why did you go against your rules? Why were you nice? Why did you cook? Why did you clean? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? And again and again you can't come up with the answer.

Slowly as you try to focus on other things and think of other people you put you heart back into that steel case. And throw away the keys. Tears make you feel a little better, but the pain is piercing through your soul. The pain never hurts as bad as the first time. Never as bad as the first heart break. But all the same you can't help but feel hopeless, foolish. Your great chance to be with your soul mate has again somehow slipped and failed. But eventually you know you will pick yourself up. Eventually you know you will try again. And eventually you know u will find the keys to you heart, but also in the back of your mind you think.... It will happen again.

Serena

Denise4925
Jan 8th, 2008, 06:46 AM
:sad: Aww, she and Common are broken up.

Destiny
Jan 8th, 2008, 03:50 PM
This is such a strange and twisted story
Who is it about?
Are we seeing a more in depth Serena, or was this just for fun?
Did she really write it coz if she did, its quite good

Dodoboy.
Jan 8th, 2008, 06:07 PM
quite long...i shall read it later

thierry
Jan 8th, 2008, 06:17 PM
I just finished reading that and it just confirms why i love Serena so much...she makes me happy.....soooo much drama and constantly thinking about boys....she really needs Venus who's all artistic and spaced out and seems like couldn't care less about such things.

In the midst of reading that almost Homeric blog entry i kept thinking back to 04 US Open when she was wearing that Xena Warrior Princess meets Biker chic outfit....in the quarters against capriati i think....the ball was in but was called out and Serena the diva came out.....that ball was soooo in!!
oh my god that ball was sooooo in!!...absolutely hysterical.


Can't wait for some major ass kicking down under.

Proud Vee and Reetard.

Marcell
Jan 8th, 2008, 07:39 PM
That sounds like Jackie she is talking about. She never seem happier than she is right now.

BuTtErFrEnA
Jan 8th, 2008, 10:00 PM
i think its about jackie...and on that thought i think its good that she has written and has apparently finally gotten it out of her system and her mind can be at peace while she focuses on her tennis

Serena'sboo
Jan 8th, 2008, 10:05 PM
Yeah i agree i think its about Jackie also but at first I thought It was about Common but I think its about Jackie

serenaforever
Jan 8th, 2008, 10:26 PM
At first I was shocked, but now I think it's about Jackie. We would have heard something by now if it was about Common. I think it's definately about her and Jackie's dramatic end.

Serena'sboo
Jan 9th, 2008, 12:42 AM
thats too bad they were a good cupple to bad for Serena :sad::sad::sad: but its good for me makes her more available for me :hearts::lol: Just playing

doni1212
Jan 9th, 2008, 01:28 AM
I hope her drama doesn't affect her on court play for the negative. I feel sad for her and it seems as if she wasted time with Jackie (b/c I don't think it's Common). Cheer up and win the AO Ree!!! :yeah:

Serena'sboo
Jan 9th, 2008, 03:49 AM
YEAH IF IT WAS COMMON WE WOULD HAVE SOME OTHER SOURCES TALKING ABOUT THEIR RELATIONSHIP BY NOW PLUS I JUST THINK THAT WAS A 3 WEEK THING ANYWAY:rolleyes: NOTHING SERIOUS JUST SOMETHING SMALL BUT JACKIE ANS SERENA WERE DATING FOR A WHILE

JUST LIKE DONI SAID I HOPE THIS DOESN'T EFFECT HER PLAY AT AO BUT WETHER SHES HURT OR HAPPY I THINK SHE'S GOING TO WIN ANYWAY :bounce:

Marcell
Jan 9th, 2008, 03:12 PM
Well guys I am sorry it has taken me so long to write another blog. My life has been hectic this fall. Let me tell you what I have been doing. I have been trying to stay fit and still manage to have some time off (which I found nearly impossible) and I also have been just finding a new me.

I don't know where to start so I will start here:
Last fall around October a big change happened in my life. I decided to make sure that tennis was most important in my life next to GOD and my family, and while I was doing that I decided to rid myself of relationships that could stop me from reaching the main goal which is being the best. I did not want anything to stand in my way of doing what I do best which is playing tennis.

With that being said I went to Europe as my fans out there would know and played 4 tournaments this fall. This is more than I have played in the fall in the past 5 years!!!
Well I ended up reaching number 5 which was so cool before I fell again to number 7 (damit) and I had tons of fun doing it. But the turning point happened when I was on a plane coming back from Paris. I was thinking “did I make the right decision?” Was I right with riding myself of certain relationships?" I began to become scared and I was worried that I had made a mistake.

Then it happened I picked up this book called "Who moved my cheese" by Spencer Johnson. I was reading this one part that said "What would you do if u were not afraid?"
And than it said "there is always cheese don't be afraid to find it." Basically it was talking about being complacent and being afraid of change. I than realized that I was afraid I was afraid of change. I was afraid to move on. I was afraid I was afraid to find new cheese! I thought there was only one cheese out there but after reading that book I realized that there is all types of "cheese" out there. Now I am not talking about real cheese but cheese is whatever you make it to be. Whether or not its money, or boyfriends, or friends. There is always more out there if what u have around you. Ok I hope I am not boring you guys, but after reading this book my whole spirit and my whole life changed. I became a different person. My personal life as well as my tennis life improved. And all I do now is laugh! I love to live and laugh! It is awesome!

I would love to recommend this book to everyone out there! Don't be afraid to find new "cheese"!!!

Xxx
Serena

RichyRena
Jan 9th, 2008, 03:33 PM
'Well I ended up reaching number 5 which was so cool before I fell again to number 7 (damit)' haha I loved that bit. Aww its nice to see she is setting the record straight about her priorities! Nice read aswell, I want to read this book. I Think she is reffering to Jackie Long?He is the cheese lol

Destiny
Jan 9th, 2008, 03:34 PM
God thank you she found the book
her lfe is better and her tennis has improved am so happy
am so happy for her
Hope you find your cheese Serena what ever it may be?
She will never bore me in what ever she does love her:hearts::hearts::hearts::hearts::hearts:

Dodoboy.
Jan 9th, 2008, 04:29 PM
I like that she is forward about certain things!...very refreshing!

BuTtErFrEnA
Jan 9th, 2008, 05:20 PM
I hope her drama doesn't affect her on court play for the negative. I feel sad for her and it seems as if she wasted time with Jackie (b/c I don't think it's Common). Cheer up and win the AO Ree!!! :yeah:

i think its what was distracting her after miami and wimbledon last year...i think its gone now :)

Denise4925
Jan 9th, 2008, 06:51 PM
I'm glad she's positive about moving forward. She's vulnerable like the rest of us in love and life, but she's got a good head on her shoulders and I think she has her priorities in place. Good for her :)