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Tennisation
May 30th, 2012, 04:14 AM
Yes I know, it's another one of those threads. Unlike the others, this one is not about coming out. So once upon a time I used to be straight (honest to God). When I was much younger like in 6th or 7th grade, I would masturbate thinking about my music teacher's big boobs and had the hots for Madonna back in the days. Then sometime somewhere in middle school I changed team. I wasn't even bi, I honestly don't know what the fuck happened I just completely became attracted to guys eversince. I know for a fact that I'm gay and is totally fine with my sexuality. As also proven around this forum that I'm pretty open about being gay. I've been in a relationship with my bf for several years now and we've been stable. Eversince I knew I was gay, no girl has ever crossed my mind sexually. Then recently, I met this girl in school and I'm totally crushing on her. I've only known her for about 3 weeks actually. I figured it was just emotional connection and that I'm not sexually attracted to her. We just hit it off like crazy and there's a lot of attraction between us. Well it turns out, I've been thinking about her sexually. I've masturbated several times since thinking about fucking her (and not from behind either). I've been turned on when I'm around this girl. I've even watched straight porn for the first time since well I was straight a long ass time ago. I even told my bf about it but he just laughed it off like it was some kind of a joke. Ironically, when a guy tells me he's bi, I generally don't believe it although I'm sure they do exist. What the fuck is going on with me guys?

Julian.
May 30th, 2012, 04:20 AM
I think you're bi.

Batemant
May 30th, 2012, 04:26 AM
I think you're bi.

Agreed. Which is totally fine! But it'll be delicate telling your partner about it, obviously. Read some Dan Savage stuff, he usually has solid advice re: saying hard things in relationships.

Tennisation
May 30th, 2012, 04:29 AM
I think you're bi.I refused to think that. If I was really bi, why wasn't I also attracted to girls at the same time I was attracted to guys all these years?

Julian.
May 30th, 2012, 04:38 AM
I refused to think that. If I was really bi, why wasn't I also attracted to girls at the same time I was attracted to guys all these years?

Are you still attracted to your boyfriend? Don't tell me you're not sexually attracted to him anymore :unsure:

ToopsTame
May 30th, 2012, 04:41 AM
2 points:
1. You can choose to identify as whatever you want. The label is something you decide. There are no rules about how many people of the opposite or same sex you have to be attracted to before you can call yourself gay/straight/bi/queer/other etc. etc.
2. Sexuality isn't an either/or choice between gay, straight, or bi. You could fit anywhere on a scale and your preference could even change over time. Some people who identify as bi say that they felt attracted to different sexes at different parts of their lives. Some people who identify as gay have had heterosexual relationships but don't think it changes who they identify as. Some people who identify as straight have same-sex relationships.

Tennisation
May 30th, 2012, 04:42 AM
Are you still attracted to your boyfriend? Don't tell me you're not sexually attracted to him anymore :unsure:I am, but it's more emotionally than sexually for the fact that we've been together for a long time now.

Julian.
May 30th, 2012, 04:44 AM
I am, but it's more emotionally than sexually for the fact that we've been together for a long time now.

So you're no longer sexually attracted to guys anymore?

Tennisation
May 30th, 2012, 04:50 AM
So you're no longer sexually attracted to guys anymore?I still am, just not as much as I used to. I figured perhaps it was due to me getting older and growing out of my hormonal raging stage.

Tennisation
May 30th, 2012, 04:52 AM
2 points:
1. You can choose to identify as whatever you want. The label is something you decide. There are no rules about how many people of the opposite or same sex you have to be attracted to before you can call yourself gay/straight/bi/queer/other etc. etc.
2. Sexuality isn't an either/or choice between gay, straight, or bi. You could fit anywhere on a scale and your preference could even change over time. Some people who identify as bi say that they felt attracted to different sexes at different parts of their lives. Some people who identify as gay have had heterosexual relationships but don't think it changes who they identify as. Some people who identify as straight have same-sex relationships.Does that mean my sexuality comes and goes in a cycle? :unsure: a long ass cycle that is. Which means I can never find true love that would ever last :o

Julian.
May 30th, 2012, 04:52 AM
I still am, just not as much as I used to. I figured perhaps it was due to me getting older and growing out of my hormonal raging stage.

Yeah, I think you're bi. :lol:

ElusiveChanteuse
May 30th, 2012, 05:26 AM
You're definitely bi. Maybe no other girl before you've found attractive to until this girl.

Tripp
May 30th, 2012, 06:41 AM
One of my best friends went through the same thing some years ago. He was totally gay, I mean, he's masculine and all but he'd been gay for as long as he could remember, and then all of the sudden this new girl comes into our group and he had a complete crush on her and they hooked up a couple of times. It ended up being just an affair, and it is still sort of a tabboo subject between us, as neither of us could really believe what was going on, but I honestly feel he had an infatuation on her. The psychological reasons beyond it are far from my reach, but I do believe he was genuinely attracted to her. After that, he just kept on with his normal life, being as gay as a goose.

I don't know, you're in a relationship right now, so maybe you should just think about monogamy other than just questioning your sexuality. You don't have to be bi, or gay, or whatever, you just feel attracted to her and that's it. Whether you act on it or not is up to you, but there's no need to question your whole grounds on it.

Smith Saybrook
May 30th, 2012, 08:25 AM
Does that mean my sexuality comes and goes in a cycle? :unsure: a long ass cycle that is. Which means I can never find true love that would ever last :o

Even if you believed in this cyclical thing, it does not mean your 'current' physical attraction needs to be mutually exclusive toward your emotional attraction. You've been with your boyfriend for years, and despite having sexual thoughts about another person (male or female) has that really changed how you feel towards the person you're with?

You have to go through a paradigm shift in how you think of sexuality. Trying to think about it black or white or even grey terms is fruitless I'd say. Physical attraction is raw, and primal. I don't think it's the determining factor on finding true love. True love is much more than that, and you've already said it's not that you're not unattractive to your boyfriend physically, it's just diminished a bit, which may be more of a result of dealing with a long term relationship for one of the first times rather than anything else.

skanky~skanketta
May 30th, 2012, 08:46 AM
Don't label yourself. If you feel like fucking a man or a woman, it''s your business. I would say you're not gay, bi or straight. Just free.

Serenus Christ
May 30th, 2012, 09:45 AM
everyone is bisexual, we are a bisexual species..

http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_luq0e92xax1qe192so1_500.gif

Ellen Dawson
May 30th, 2012, 02:21 PM
Yes I know, it's another one of those threads. Unlike the others, this one is not about coming out. So once upon a time I used to be straight (honest to God). When I was much younger like in 6th or 7th grade, I would masturbate thinking about my music teacher's big boobs and had the hots for Madonna back in the days. Then sometime somewhere in middle school I changed team. I wasn't even bi, I honestly don't know what the fuck happened I just completely became attracted to guys eversince. I know for a fact that I'm gay and is totally fine with my sexuality. As also proven around this forum that I'm pretty open about being gay. I've been in a relationship with my bf for several years now and we've been stable. Eversince I knew I was gay, no girl has ever crossed my mind sexually. Then recently, I met this girl in school and I'm totally crushing on her. I've only known her for about 3 weeks actually. I figured it was just emotional connection and that I'm not sexually attracted to her. We just hit it off like crazy and there's a lot of attraction between us. Well it turns out, I've been thinking about her sexually. I've masturbated several times since thinking about fucking her (and not from behind either). I've been turned on when I'm around this girl. I've even watched straight porn for the first time since well I was straight a long ass time ago. I even told my bf about it but he just laughed it off like it was some kind of a joke. Ironically, when a guy tells me he's bi, I generally don't believe it although I'm sure they do exist. What the fuck is going on with me guys?

I can relate; I'm strictly vagitarian. :drool: But all kidding aside, if you're question is whether you're gay or straight, perhaps this query will solve your dilemma:

Who do you see spending the rest of your life with?

Picture growing old with someone and their gender should tell you what team you play for. :)

Ellen Dawson
May 30th, 2012, 02:24 PM
everyone is bisexual, we are a bisexual species..

I disagree.

I firmly believe that there are loads of people who have no sexual attraction whatsoever to more than one gender.

BARBIE
May 30th, 2012, 10:43 PM
I think you fall on No. 5 on the Kinsey scale ;)


http://oi56.tinypic.com/2s10t8y.jpg

new-york
May 31st, 2012, 02:16 AM
Not sure you need to rethink yourself. You're just attracted to that girl.

Now if other women start attracting you, I don't know.
Is gay cocknema still getting you excited?

Don't forget that being gay doesn't change the fact that touching her boobs would be cheating.

delicatecutter
May 31st, 2012, 03:45 AM
Have you ever actually had sex with a girl? That might put things more in focus..

Ellen Dawson
May 31st, 2012, 02:36 PM
Perhaps you should go see this (http://www.broadway.com/buzz/161958/olivier-award-winning-play-cock-opens-off-broadway/) play? ;)


http://d3rm69wky8vagu.cloudfront.net/article-photos/large/2.160001.jpg


Cast Interview (http://www.broadway.com/shows/cock/videos/#loc=buzz-article-detail)

pov
May 31st, 2012, 06:31 PM
IMO - if what you posted is true - you're genuinely bisexual.

I'd say enjoy being with whatever sex/gender you find appealing at any time. And don't let any monosexual people pressure you into fitting into their preferred identity.

pov
May 31st, 2012, 06:35 PM
everyone is bisexual, we are a bisexual species..

:) At "deep root levels" I happen to think that's so. But on day-to-day levels most people go the monosexual route.

pov
May 31st, 2012, 06:36 PM
I think you fall on No. 5 on the Kinsey scale ;)

Interesting take. I'd say #3.

Maddox
May 31st, 2012, 08:13 PM
Do not cheat on your bf, that would so not be fair, unless you guys are cool with that stuff.

Can't believe your were wanking in 7th grade :lol:

McPie
Jun 1st, 2012, 06:16 AM
now you have found the other right when you have the right one already :lol:

Dominic
Jun 1st, 2012, 07:13 AM
:) At "deep root levels" I happen to think that's so. But on day-to-day levels most people go the monosexual route.

You're no longer a homophobe?