View Full Version : I'm nervous...

Apr 23rd, 2006, 06:18 AM
Alright, I did have plans to go out with one of my guy friends tomorrow, to go watch Silent Hill. Well tonight around 10:30pm, the love of my life calls me back, from her HOME HOME. Meaning she's back home. I answered she said she's back livin at home with her mom and all. Well she's beggin me to come get her tomorrow that we'd go out to dinner that she wants to seriously discuss our future that she's got plans for the two of us. That we'd meet up, take her and the puppy out, and go to dinner then find somewhere quiet, isolated and alone and park and that she wanted to give me some. That she's missed me so much, and she's wanting to prove to me how much she misses me and needs me in her life. That she's ready to have sex with me even if it's in a damn car out in the middle of no where. Because I can't bring her back here, my family hates her. In fact if they find out I'm out with her tomorrow and not my guy friend her and I will be dead... I kid you not, they'd kill us. Her mom is OK with us, but we don't feel safe being at her home foolin around alone together... with her mom, bro, and grandparents all being there and her lacking a locking bedroom door. So she wants me to come get her around 2pm tomorrow and us go out together, her treat.
I've dreamed about this for a while, but now I'm nervous... like it's my first time all over again. I shouldn't feel this way. Hell I've bought DVD's and books to improve my techniques and all. I'm sure I'll be damn better this time than any other time I was for her. I'm just, I dunno scared. Please offer me some advice, this is the girl I'm basically married to, who I've been with for the past 6+ years of my life, even thou it's been a lot of on again, off again business. She's still my soulmate. It's just tough when my family hates her, becuase they expect me to be straight.

Plus I have this massive hickie on my shoulder, it's not in a sexual area or anything just where I was wearin a tank top and me and my friend Erin who's a previous EX left on me when we were wrestling around. Because hell she thought like me Jojo was never going to come home to me, and I should just view myself as free. I never thought me putting my foot down whould bring her home so damn quickly. What do I tell her about this hickie thing? Or is my best best covering it up.

I'm just at a loss here, I need :help: folks. I'm off to take a long relaxing bath to calm my nerves.

Apr 23rd, 2006, 06:23 AM
i know nothing about that sex...sorry..
but all the best to u and her...ul do well..dont worry

Apr 23rd, 2006, 06:46 AM
For the hickie thing, you're best to cover it up, but you're best to try come up with something about it, because if it goes how you think it will, she will see it. You've just got to ignore what your family thinks of her, it's your choice who you go out with and what you want to be, not theirs, it's yours. I was involved in an on again, off again relationship with a girl for just under 4 years, and I did cave in to pressure from other people, and now I'm never going to have her again. You've just got to do what is right for you and what you want to do. Because if you don't, you're just going to regret it for ages, and again I've done something like that before, and it hurts

Apr 23rd, 2006, 06:50 AM
:rocker2: Lezzer sexing!! Boobings!! :toothy:

Dani - seriously; do what I know you're gonna do anyway. ;)
You love her, I know this. Eventually you will be with her, and I guess it just happens to be tomorrow. I think the talk about your future is CRITICAL. There can be no more "stuff". Ya'll really need to move to a bigger place and leave the hicks behind. I mean, I know you like being the token dyke in town... but you need something a little more away from that life. Plus, somewhere where your families can't influence you negatively.

Best wishes m'dear. Kiss Hojo for me. .... but not on the kagina, cuz you know I'd never do that! :p

Apr 23rd, 2006, 07:59 AM
I'm off to bed now, I should be able to sleep since I have the friendly assistance of Tylenol PM's :) Gotta remember to set my alarm thou. Can't poke around, she wants to see me so bad. It's sorta cute to hear all the begging from both online and over the phone. I got at least 10 "I've missed you" and pweeeezzzzzzz come be with me". I'll go, I just pray I don't get found out by anyone. All I'm asking for is one peaceful day when things happen that I've not really had since January. So if I can get away with tomorrow without any stresses I'm gonna be A-OK :D

Off to bed now, gotta get my :zzz: