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Foot_Fault
Jun 30th, 2005, 11:32 AM
On an Annual Basis I get tested. I have slipped in the past with unprotected sex, however I am usually safe. MTV is running a champaign call Free Testing Week "Get Tested", so I figured since it's free I'll bit.

They have the New Rapid Testing, where you get your results in 20 minutes and it could be done with the Finger Prick Test with some blood or the New Oral Test. I Opted for the Finger Prick which i was told are 99.9% accurate.

I went in and met with the HIV Counselor as she was asking me about my sexual history, and one question stood out. "do you think you're at risk?" And I said no, but you never know, there was a cast of doubt. After the brief counseling session I took my test and was told to come back or just wait in 20 or 30 minutes. So i did what everyone a lil nervous would do...SHOP. But not that kind, just went to CVS for toiletries. I walk back into the clinic, told the counselor I was back....she looked at me and said, "Oh, let me get the nurse." I was like OOoo Shit. The nurse came in with my paperwork, I said, "dont beat around the bush with me....Tell Me IMMEDIATELY!" My heart was pounding.

She said.."Oh, it's Negative." Damn what a relief, i took the Nurses hand and put it on my chest, she said... "Whoa, your heart is pounding like mad." I go through the same emotions Everytime.

WHY? Is it because the mark of "possible" something life altering with the stigma of death attached to it?:rolleyes: :confused:

ps. trying to divert some emotions here, trying not to think about the Venus/Sharapova match.

charmedRic
Jun 30th, 2005, 11:49 AM
Whenever your partner has been with someone else there is always the possibility that the third party could have lied. An might have infected your partner, therefore putting you in a high risk.

The couple of times I've been tested (and I'm 18), I went in pretty secure seeing as my two boyfriends were very clear about their histories. However in those 5 to 10 minutes before the results are in every single scenario runs through your head.

And of course, the one where they tell you that you're positive is one that makes your heart beat like crazy.

I'm glad to hear MTV is having a program, :). It's so sad to see all the youth know so little unless they're a group that's in a high risk environment.

Foot_Fault
Jun 30th, 2005, 12:04 PM
Whenever your partner has been with someone else there is always the possibility that the third party could have lied. An might have infected your partner, therefore putting you in a high risk.

The couple of times I've been tested (and I'm 18), I went in pretty secure seeing as my two boyfriends were very clear about their histories. However in those 5 to 10 minutes before the results are in every single scenario runs through your head.

And of course, the one where they tell you that you're positive is one that makes your heart beat like crazy.

I'm glad to hear MTV is having a program, :). It's so sad to see all the youth know so little unless they're a group that's in a high risk environment.

Glad you are so aware. I have hetro sex, which is MORE RISKY. Only because the mentality going in is..."the gay disease and that SUX, B/c it's not. EVERYONE having UPS is at risk. I didnt have the scenario spread, I just wanted to know, and know immediately. Lay it on me, dont beat around the bush.

Yeah, MTV really doing a good thing.

BigB08822
Jun 30th, 2005, 02:29 PM
I have to go get tested soon, especially since I just found out my boyfriend of 8 months was cheating on me with two people. :(

Cariaoke
Jun 30th, 2005, 02:33 PM
I'm seriously thinking about getting tested. I've had UPS this year. :o Time to get it done.

Nicjac
Jun 30th, 2005, 02:34 PM
Well, how does one feel looking into the face of death.

People tend to forget that still no cure for AIDS exist.

Helen Lawson
Jun 30th, 2005, 02:41 PM
The time I got tested, I didn't even know. They took a bunch of blood for a life insurance physical, and then the chippie called to tell me the tests were fine and that if I wanted to know, the HIV was negative.
That's the best way to get tested.

Foot_Fault
Jun 30th, 2005, 02:49 PM
The time I got tested, I didn't even know. They took a bunch of blood for a life insurance physical, and then the chippie called to tell me the tests were fine and that if I wanted to know, the HIV was negative.
That's the best way to get tested.

I give blood all the time. Now they will test it for HIV, but unless you sign a CONSENT form, they were not suppose to tell you. But I guess b/c it was a life insurance policy that was different.

I think it's real and I can kick my own ass for having UPS in the last year, but I told God yesterday if it was negative, i will not gamble with that ever again.
and NicJac was right, there is NOT i repeat NOT a cure for AIDS.

TimBo
Jun 30th, 2005, 02:49 PM
There is no cure, but its certainly not a death sentence. In the late 80's and even up until the 90's, being tested positive was a death sentence. But its not like that anymore. There are some excellent treatments. Remember, being HIV positive doesnt mean u have AIDS. HIV is the virus that causes AIDS. People can take care of themselves and never reach AIDS status.
Saying that, we must all use protection and be cautious.

Foot_Fault
Jun 30th, 2005, 02:51 PM
For all that want to know about the MTV Champaign that I spoke of here is the link.
http://www.mtv.com/news/articles/1504775/20050627/index.jhtml?headlines=true

Just click the Find a testing center HERE button, and then put in your zip code it will give you the nearest center to you. And it's FREE and you can get your results in 20 minutes. It ends Tomorrow.

TimBo
Jun 30th, 2005, 02:53 PM
At your local health dept.. its always free

Foot_Fault
Jun 30th, 2005, 02:57 PM
At your local health dept.. its always free

Not the Rapid test. Correct me if I am wrong though. But the regular test where they draw blood and send to the lab is free as I was told, and you get your results in a week or two. The Rapid test are $95.00

pla
Jun 30th, 2005, 03:00 PM
On an Annual Basis I get tested. I have slipped in the past with unprotected sex, however I am usually safe. MTV is running a champaign call Free Testing Week "Get Tested", so I figured since it's free I'll bit.

They have the New Rapid Testing, where you get your results in 20 minutes and it could be done with the Finger Prick Test with some blood or the New Oral Test. I Opted for the Finger Prick which i was told are 99.9% accurate.

I went in and met with the HIV Counselor as she was asking me about my sexual history, and one question stood out. "do you think you're at risk?" And I said no, but you never know, there was a cast of doubt. After the brief counseling session I took my test and was told to come back or just wait in 20 or 30 minutes. So i did what everyone a lil nervous would do...SHOP. But not that kind, just went to CVS for toiletries. I walk back into the clinic, told the counselor I was back....she looked at me and said, "Oh, let me get the nurse." I was like OOoo Shit. The nurse came in with my paperwork, I said, "dont beat around the bush with me....Tell Me IMMEDIATELY!" My heart was pounding.

She said.."Oh, it's Negative." Damn what a relief, i took the Nurses hand and put it on my chest, she said... "Whoa, your heart is pounding like mad." I go through the same emotions Everytime.

WHY? Is it because the mark of "possible" something life altering with the stigma of death attached to it?:rolleyes: :confused:

ps. trying to divert some emotions here, trying not to think about the Venus/Sharapova match.


You had to wait only 20 minutes, imagine if it was DAYS. It was horrible. When I get tested for HVC it's scary but nothing like HIV. I was terrorized, all the time had my heart going like crazy, I was during more than a week like a zomby- almost unconcious :D. In fact it wasn't even my test, it was my husband's test but if his was negative my one would be too and vice versa. Then came the day of the verdict, my husband entered the doctor's office and disappeared for an hour there, I thought the results were bad and and almost colapsed. Then my husband came and he said it was negative and I started crying like a baby, I cryed for something like an hour in his arms.

One thing is sure, I will never hav USPs EVER in my life if I have the choice :D. It was terrifying

SJW
Jun 30th, 2005, 03:00 PM
i should get it done. i just dont have the bottle :(

pla
Jun 30th, 2005, 03:02 PM
There is no cure, but its certainly not a death sentence. In the late 80's and even up until the 90's, being tested positive was a death sentence. But its not like that anymore. There are some excellent treatments. Remember, being HIV positive doesnt mean u have AIDS. HIV is the virus that causes AIDS. People can take care of themselves and never reach AIDS status.
Saying that, we must all use protection and be cautious.

The problem is not everyone have a positive responce to the drugs and some people have so bad secondary effects that it's impossible to live a normal life. You know, I have a HVC pos. person in my nearest antourage and this virus is not as bad as HIV's and it's still horrible.

Foot_Fault
Jun 30th, 2005, 03:24 PM
You had to wait only 20 minutes, imagine if it was DAYS. It was horrible. When I get tested for HVC it's scary but nothing like HIV. I was terrorized, all the time had my heart going like crazy, I was during more than a week like a zomby- almost unconcious :D. In fact it wasn't even my test, it was my husband's test but if his was negative my one would be too and vice versa. Then came the day of the verdict, my husband entered the doctor's office and disappeared for an hour there, I thought the results were bad and and almost colapsed. Then my husband came and he said it was negative and I started crying like a baby, I cryed for something like an hour in his arms.

One thing is sure, I will never hav USPs EVER in my life if I have the choice :D. It was terrifying

well i am glad your husbands test was negative, but dont hinge his results on whats going on IN your body. Although i get what you mean if it was the only one how could you deal, but you never know how that virus manifest in each individual.

SelesFan70
Jun 30th, 2005, 03:34 PM
There is no cure, but its certainly not a death sentence. In the late 80's and even up until the 90's, being tested positive was a death sentence. But its not like that anymore. There are some excellent treatments. Remember, being HIV positive doesnt mean u have AIDS. HIV is the virus that causes AIDS. People can take care of themselves and never reach AIDS status.
Saying that, we must all use protection and be cautious.

I totally agree with your post. I know several people that have been Hiv+ for 20+ years. I think half the battle is in your mind. :)

pla
Jun 30th, 2005, 03:37 PM
well i am glad your husbands test was negative, but dont hinge his results on whats going on IN your body. Although i get what you mean if it was the only one how could you deal, but you never know how that virus manifest in each individual.

Thank you. I will get tested some day- to be 99.99% sure ;). I don't know when this day will come but it will

Foot_Fault
Jun 30th, 2005, 03:41 PM
Thank you. I will get tested some day- to be 99.99% sure ;). I don't know when this day will come but it will

Dont put off Tomorrow, what you can do Today. LOL:lol:

pla
Jun 30th, 2005, 03:52 PM
Dont put off Tomorrow, what you can do Today. LOL:lol:

Where I grew up it was more like "Why should I do something today, while I can do it tomorrow?" :haha:

But you are right I shoudn't wait :)

canadian_bass_2
Jun 30th, 2005, 04:10 PM
Wow. 20 minute testing. That's so much better than the week that I have to wait. Dear god, in that week, every free moment brings up awful memories of those few times when I had unprotected sex. And not in that good way. The last time I got tested, I was sitting in the symphony listening to Scheherezade and thinking "is a virus currently running through me? Am I gonna have to go on some crazy assed meds?"

I hate the waiting.

I know it's not the death sentence it once was, but, I'm sure it's like waiting to get the tests back from a biopsy to see if you have cancer. Sure, it may be benign, but it's still cancer.

It's bothersome just to think that you've got something inside you that you didn't notice. Like, it's not exactly like you can FEEL you have HIV/AIDS until you're quite sick.

Anywho, I'm sure you'll all be happy to hear that I'm in the free and clear. I am a gay man without AIDS. Whee!!!

PS: Kudos to all of you out there who are going to get tested. It's scary, but it needs to be done.

"Sluggy"
Jun 30th, 2005, 04:14 PM
It used to be very scarey. You never know. Ten days of pure agony.

Foot_Fault
Jul 1st, 2005, 02:41 AM
Wow. 20 minute testing. That's so much better than the week that I have to wait. Dear god, in that week, every free moment brings up awful memories of those few times when I had unprotected sex. And not in that good way. The last time I got tested, I was sitting in the symphony listening to Scheherezade and thinking "is a virus currently running through me? Am I gonna have to go on some crazy assed meds?"

I hate the waiting.

I know it's not the death sentence it once was, but, I'm sure it's like waiting to get the tests back from a biopsy to see if you have cancer. Sure, it may be benign, but it's still cancer.

It's bothersome just to think that you've got something inside you that you didn't notice. Like, it's not exactly like you can FEEL you have HIV/AIDS until you're quite sick.

Anywho, I'm sure you'll all be happy to hear that I'm in the free and clear. I am a gay man without AIDS. Whee!!!

PS: Kudos to all of you out there who are going to get tested. It's scary, but it needs to be done.

its a scary thing, i was very nervous, but u HAVE to know. KNOWING is Half the Battle.

Sally Struthers
Jul 1st, 2005, 03:04 AM
this is embarrassing but when I was reading about people saying UPS I kept wondering to myself what the package delivery people had to do with anything till someone told me :o :haha: :(

Keith
Jul 1st, 2005, 04:52 AM
I was tested about a month ago. I was expecting a neg result and that is what it was. I really had no reason to be nervous because if I had it, then it was one of those freak infections from kissing or a little bit of oral sex. I know those are ways to get it but the risk is rather low. Anyway, I was nervous anyway. I didn't feel relieved when I found out but it's just good to know periodically.

Kart
Jul 1st, 2005, 02:09 PM
I always feel awful waiting for my test results.

Last time I went I had recurrent throat infections and worked myself up into a frenzy and was convinced that I was going to be positive even though I had been pretty safe.

Unlike you I had to wait a week for my results :(. The relief afterwards was monumental !

Even though I've been tested a few times, I still don't know how I'd cope if I turned out to be positive - I spent the whole week last time thinking of how to deal with it and still couldn't figure out a way.

AjdeNate!
Jul 18th, 2005, 04:07 AM
I've only been tested twice... And it's a horrible feeling. Of course, no matter how careful you are, you always have that "what if" feeling. And I had (past tense) my share of UPS.

F-R-E-A-K
Jul 18th, 2005, 04:14 AM
Ive been tested. My parents have insisted. :)


I wasnt too scared, cos I really havent slept around BUT - I did feel sick, felt yukky on the inside. I was full of worry for no reason really. Its definately a scary thing though.