This can't last. This misery can't last. I must remember that and try to control myself. Nothing lasts really. Neither happiness nor despair. Not even life lasts very long. There'll come a time in the future when I shan't mind about this anymore, when I can look back and say quite peacefully and cheerfully how silly I was. No, no, I don't want that time to come ever. I want to remember every minute, always, always to the end of my days.
I don't understand why in tennis nobody cares about the starting time of the match! in all other sports when you are due to start at eleven you warm up before this time and at the time of start the game starts .. is that in tennis? NO but why? Why couldn't the players when they're to start at 11am come to the court at 10:45 and start warming up so that their match starts on time as scheduled???????