She means a lot to me too.
As a friend of mine on another board said "Lindsay is a positive thing in your life, and now that she's retired, that positive thing is gone. You feel as if, tennis wise, you have nothing to look forward too now."
I got into this sport at a time where I didn't have much to hang on to. For whatever the reason, I went to Lindsay, and I, less than a better phrase, fell in love with everything about her.
I miss her with all my heart and soul. I am having a rough go of it dealing with the fact that she's done. But it's better than not knowing and it's better than her having an injury that takes her out. She made this call, ran the risk of getting pregnant and it happened. She waited, the pregnancy kept and that's that.
I miss everything about her already, the little things, the smile on her service, her name on a scoreboard, her mood swings.
Saying goodbye sucks. Some of you all were prepared for this, I wasn't. I ignored it because I thought she had more time.
But I hope she'll still be around and all, and we'll have the memories to rehash.
My two biggest fears now are:
1. Is Lindsay going to stay involved in tennis someway, like commentary?
2. What happens to TOP now? We're all going to keep coming in and talk right? The board is going to kill us right?
I love you Lindsay!