Join Date: Feb 2009
Location: Self-made gilded cage
I try not to blame myself too much and to say it's understandable if I fail, it takes a lot of pressure out. That makes it easier to do my homework for example. And I also tell myself how much do I hate my country's pathetic habits and how much do I adore efficiency.
The belief that man is an irresolute creature pulled this way and that by two forces of equal strength, alternately winning and losing the battle for his soul; the conviction that human life is nothing more than an uncertain struggle between heaven and hell; the faith in two opposed entities, Satan and Christ - all this was bound to engender those internal discords in which the mind, excited by the incessant fighting, stimulated as it were by the constant promises and threats, ends up by giving in and prostitutes itself to whichever of the two combatants has been more obstinate in its pursuit. Life isn't black and white, it's gold.