Today was just awful
. I played a girl for the first time in my interclub matches, and TBH she wasn't any better or worse (including serve) than the other boys I've faced. I figure the score would've been more or less the same against another boy. I lost 5-7 4-6. 0-5 in singles and doubles now.
I just could not blast my first serve today like I did in practice yesterday though not for lack of trying. It's just that they always ended up in the net. If I had any sort of functioning brain I would've stopped trying as clearly it wasn't going to work today (except a few times). But that's me for you
First set was pretty even. It wasn't until 5-6 in the first she decided to hit a few annoyingly good returns and break for the set (though one of them was lucky IIRC). She took me by surprise that game as for most of it, like most club players I've faced (and still lost to, granted) she was just kinda pushing it. I actually had break points at 4-4 in the second. On one of them, the bitch robbed me. A ball hit the sideline and she called it out. At the time I wasn't too pissed because it wasn't my only BP, but I let her off the hook and I lost my next game and the match.
Apart from my low serve %, I didn't stay disciplined enough on the return, and as usual I missed way too many. I always gift my opponents easy games with returns I hit out due to going for too much. Stupid as it may be to insult the game of the ones that beat you, crappy club-level serves are just too tempting to take a big violent swing at
The good things were the odd occasion I did manage to blast the serve I got some service winners that were basically aces (and one proper ace). I've never really had that before, so my serve's on the right track even though it didn't work as well today. Also, the down the line forehand (on the ad side as I'm a lefty) is a shot I struggle with and rarely hit, but I hit 2 or 3 beauties on that side today which resulted in forced errors. I hit quite a few winners today overall (obviously a lot of errors too, but we're focusing on the good stuff this paragraph
But then, I lost doubles 2-9. I was so angry after singles due to my characteristic brainlessness and being robbed on that crucial point that I absolutely tanked doubles. That's never happened before. Even though I've been disappointed after losing singles and took a while to get into it, I've always at least tried in doubles as well. I don't know if that means anything, but it was the first time I just didn't care and tanked a match. My partner was also quite useless but that didn't affect my tankage.
I think it's a sign that I need to sort my shit out soon and win a match before I start tanking singles too and ultimately giving up
Hindsight is great, but I wish I could realize these things during a match and not after
I swear to God I must be the worst player with weapons on the planet.