Hey, just wanted to update things since something really big happened. I'm glad I made this thread, it made me feel so much better and it's great to have such amazing friends who always support me
Things have been good since and I'm still adapting.
Dunno if it's smart or not to tell everyone this, but here it goes. A couple weeks ago I met this guy at my tennis club and he is new there(he moved to my city a while ago), but he's already experienced at tennis. He's 17 and a half. He's about my height, maybe just a bit taller and has dark blond, short hair and dark blue eyes and VERY nicely built and he's very handsome. I saw him playing earlier that day and he was really good. Instantly I though "Wow, he's hot". So anyway, later, we were sitting in the lounge of our tennis club and I we were just having a nice convo and I was just trying to be friendly since he was new. We had a loooong convo and he was really friendly and funny. So before we went home, we exchanged phone numbers.
The next day, I had practice early in the morning and when I was done, I saw him again and he said "You were really good today, I'm impressed" and we then went to grab some ice cream and sit at a popular cafee for a bit. Last week, prior to the last day of school, we were on Skype and we were talking til 4.20 in the morning
and this Sunday we went out for the first time(officially). I've known him for a very short amount of time(less than week at that point) but the more time I spent with him, the less I could control the way I felt. And we went out that night and had a blast and he walked me home since it was o his way home and then there was just a really awkward moment of silence and he looked in my eyes...my heart started pounding...he got closer to me...and then it just happened! We kissed. It was a short kiss, but I never felt like that in my life
My lips were burning, my hear was pounding like crazy and I was so confused. I could barely sleep that night, I was thinking about it non-stop.
We were kinda awkward after that til yesterday and we had an awkward convo and he said that he wanted to go out again if I was up for it and I said yes. The thing is,I have no idea what's happening with me, I never felt like this about anyone, I've completely lost my appetite and all I can think about it him...Could it possibly be what I think it is???
The thing is, I told myself I'll take it slow once I came out, but now I feel like things are happening all of a sudden
What do I do, help???