Re: Coming out...
Nice thread. I totally understand how difficult coming out in Serbia is.
I'm 18 now and I came out to my best friend a few years ago and later to my other good friends and all of them were extremely supportive. Honestly, I have such a close bond with my best friends, they literally mean the world to me and weve been together our entire lives through the ups and downs and my best memories are with them.
The beginning of high school was awful. I was struggling with my sexuality and I was so insecure, scared and unhappy. I isolated myself from everyone and fell into a deep depression. Eventually though, I learned to accept myself and obviously my living friends contributed greatly to making me feel loved.
Then I met this awesome guy who was two years older and we fell in love and my whole world changed. I felt so alive, so happy. We were together for ten months and eventually he had to leave to go to uni in another city, so I ended it and was quite heartbroken for a while, but life got back to being great for a while....until 3 months ago.
I finally took the courage to come out to my parents, despite knowing their reaction. ALL HELL BROKE LOOSE. They immediately sold my phone, ipad, laptop and took me to the police to have my laptop searched (the horror). I was then submitted to drug tests and STD tests, accused of being sick, deviant, evil, twisted, they said I was an abomination, that I destroyed their lives, that they hate me, that I will burn in hell and die of STDs and drugs.
They have given me until May to find another home and have put our house on sale. They said they wont pay for my uni and that they dont ever want to see me again once I move out. I never thought it would come to this and I thought despite everything they would at least not give up on me, but I guess I was wrong.
I was always a great student and I still am, I have such high ambitions career wise, but I wont be able to go to uni. At least not in a few years until I get a job and save up some money to move to Belgrade. Im keeping my options open though, because all of my friends are willing to let me live with them for free during uni, so Ill see. I wont give up on my dreams, not for my parents, not for anyone.
I wish them all the best and I hope they will find closure and peace. I wont judge them or hold a grudge against them, ever, however they failed at being parents. No question about it.
It hurts, it hurts so much and it will always hurt, but I have my whole life ahead of me andI keep moving on with a smile.