Yes, I do. I’m not sure to what extent, but I definitely do. Where do I start? I’ll try not to make this a giant essay, but it’s nice to see a thread than I can relate to.
I was always a very popular guy at school (I was, I’m not lying!) but I never really went out, figured I didn’t really ‘fit in’ to the whole party lifestyle, but that never bothered me. Since finishing school I’ve studied off and on, but that was always difficult because of my social anxiety. Mikey, I think you did absolutely brilliantly to finish your degree, well done! If I’m being 100% honest, the reason why I quit uni had just as much to do with the fear of rocking up every day to classes than it did my dislike for a few subjects. I’d hate the prospect of attending classes, never wanted to answer questions, hated drawing attention to myself, in the end the easy solution was to drop out. I agree even simple things like paying for groceries can be stressful, it’s hard to explain why, it just is. And an even sadder part if that people who I see at work EVERY day, even those who I am, in a worse sense, close to, I might still get nervous around and be afraid of stuffing up. I think I am slowly improving in this area, although obviously far from perfect.
I’ll make excuses not to go out. I don’t even have a really close friend that I can talk to about stuff like this, who is there? People who know me wouldn’t have a clue how bad I am in social situations and how doing day to day stuff can be stressful. My life is pretty depressing and very boring, and it's becoming more so because of this. I am very self conscious; I get very nervous for no real reason and build up stress over tiny things. I am doing my Christmas shopping tomorrow; no doubt walking around the shops by myself will be a bit stressful.
Thankyou for this thread.