Soooooooo TF family I don't ask for much, but I really need you're help. I shall explain.
So this guy that I will call 'Roger' and I have been friends since 6th grade. However, after two years in high school together a School Board decision split our school up. So the beginning of this year, this guy 'Myron' and I were 'talking' and around this time Roderick and I got closer. I told Roger about what was going on between Myron and I and he got very angry regarding the fact that we were talking....because apparently he doesn't like him.
So moving along in the coming weeks, Myron and I who weren't dating at all, but were close to it, ended abruptly as he stopped talking to me to get back with his ex. Roger got angry again and once again we got closer. Everyday, for around the next 6 months he would text me at 5am until he went to bed, and sometimes we'd talk on the phone until 1-2 in the morning, and not surprisingly I started to have feelings for in and I let him know, his response was simply 'ok'.
Things were going well, until he got mad over a facebook wallpost and then alot of things came to light. During the course of our friendship, he would tell his friends (primarily female) that he hated gay people, and things along those lines, and always feel the need to prove that he was straight because many people strongly believe that he is gay.
Unfortunately, things have gotten worse as of last month, on my way to school I was 'violated' by a stranger, and I have since not recovered mentally. However, the day of the incident, the only person I wanted to talk to that day was 'Roger' and when I told him what happened he laughed, and since then has remained mad at me and picks on me both because I am gay, and the incident that happend. I asked him why he continues to do this and his response was in brief, 'fuck you and your feelings.'
I don't understand, and I am greatly confused is he gay, or actually straight. I don't know and it's sad because though I am gay, I really don't like guys, I prefer to keep to myself and be alone. However, Roger was always there and he trult treated me like he liked me, we went to basketball games together, etc...but...ya know..? Idk I'm just confused, and hurt....
Could you pleased help figure out...
Is he gay..?
Why did he act the way he did..?
Why do I still have feelings for him..?
How do I get over...?