I think I may be addicted to painkillers.
(I know I hate personal threads, but I need some advice from people who won't be able to force me into the looney bin.)
I take them every day now, and while they're not really habit forming, I think I may be psychologically attached to them. I mean, it started out when I got hurt in an accident at work, and my back was in constant pain for a while... but that went away, and now I still take them.
It's tramadol... and I don't know, it just makes me feel so good when I take it. I feel relaxed and my little aches and pains all go away. It lets me sleep easily at night.
The problem now is that I seem to be taking so much of it that it's losing it's effectiveness, and I'm starting to freak out about what I'm going to do without it (another sign I might be dependent).
I've also been taking diphenhydramine with it, the heighten the effects. Probably not a good idea.
Has anyone else been through this? What did you do? I'll be honest in saying that I don't want to give them up. I was a terribly moody and depressed person before I went on these, and they've been a miracle for me. I feel like a lead a normal life now. I don't want to lose that.