On an Annual Basis I get tested. I have slipped in the past with unprotected sex, however I am usually safe. MTV is running a champaign call Free Testing Week "Get Tested", so I figured since it's free I'll bit.
They have the New Rapid Testing, where you get your results in 20 minutes and it could be done with the Finger Prick Test with some blood or the New Oral Test. I Opted for the Finger Prick which i was told are 99.9% accurate.
I went in and met with the HIV Counselor as she was asking me about my sexual history, and one question stood out. "do you think you're at risk?" And I said no, but you never know, there was a cast of doubt. After the brief counseling session I took my test and was told to come back or just wait in 20 or 30 minutes. So i did what everyone a lil nervous would do...SHOP. But not that kind, just went to CVS for toiletries. I walk back into the clinic, told the counselor I was back....she looked at me and said, "Oh, let me get the nurse." I was like OOoo Shit. The nurse came in with my paperwork, I said, "dont beat around the bush with me....Tell Me IMMEDIATELY!" My heart was pounding.
She said.."Oh, it's Negative." Damn what a relief, i took the Nurses hand and put it on my chest, she said... "Whoa, your heart is pounding like mad." I go through the same emotions Everytime.
WHY? Is it because the mark of "possible" something life altering with the stigma of death attached to it?
ps. trying to divert some emotions here, trying not to think about the Venus/Sharapova match.