I'm soooooooooooooo there. This has been the worst year (yes, at only March 8th) of my life. (And I'm not young, so I've had much experience
I've been dealing with the same thing.
First - it's SO important that you actually realize where you are. In your mind. That's the biggest part. To get right with what you feel. Next, promise yourself or someone you truly love like a friend or family member that you will never harm yourself. That's very very very important! Do this, and keep this promise. Remember if you ever need to just talk/vent/bitch/complain, there's plenty of people to talk to. Especially on here, even if you don't know them,... someone will always listen.
Try to engage yourself in some sort of physical activity (if you can). Go to a gym, play tennis... do something physical. The endorphine release will offer up a temporary solution.
Do something you like - get a new tattoo, rent your favorite dvd, spoil yourself.
Stay away from negative influences. If there is something or someone that is causing you pain, even if it's only by their mere existence... A-V-O-I-D the situation.
If you need to, talk to your family doctor. They can prescribe medication that can help and without all the hullabulloo of a pysch consult. Just be open and honest, no matter how hard it is. If you get antidepressants, take them only as prescribed and don't stop if you feel better. You need to work out all the issues that are at the root cause first.
Just try, and I am king of not doing this.... Just try to realize that you do love yourself, no matter if so-and-so or whatever doesn't. Even if you don't feel like it right now, you DO love yourself. You have to. I mean, by your willingness to be so open and frank about such a deep topic shows your self-desire to be back to a state of mind where you were happy.
I hope this helps... I sadly have first hand knowledge of all this.
And,... just because I wanna, here's a
Keep your chin up, I PROMISE things will get better. They always do... even if they take forever to happen.
Life never hands us anything that we can't handle. I promise.