Join Date: Jul 2002
Location: Charlottesville, VA
When was the last time you cried?
So when was the last time that you cried?
Looking back, it was about 3 months ago that I last cried, when the guy i liked told me he didn't like me. I cried because i was mean to him on that nightas well, I thought he wasn't paying enough attention to me and the fact that he was leaving the following day made me even more sad. I felt really really hurtful, what i did to him. When we were watching a doubles match at night, I left the stadium halfway because I thought it was all not going to work out. Then when the match ended, I was lucky enough to meet him outside the stadium and we walked off together to his hotel. It was no fun, I was trying to walk faster whilst I could see his silhouette trying to keep up with me. I felt like a total jerk and felt so horrible for doing that. I felt like breaking down on my way back, and didn't talk to him at all during the entire journey. When I sent him off to his room, I took some of my stuff and left his room just saying "bye", nothing more. I felt so digusted with the way I acted and it made me feel even worse having to walk back all the way to my dorm, which took about 30 mins. I wanted to walk him all the way to the hotel, because I really liked him and I would sacrifice anything to make things work. I picked up my pace on the way back as I really wanted to talk to him so badly to apologise for my childish behaviour. I arrived at the dorm, immediately seeking my close friend hoping that I could talk to him about it but unfortunately, he wasn't there. I borrowed my friend's mobile phone and called the poor guy whom I treated so badly and childishly that night. I heard his voice, and I began to talk. He asked what's the matter, and I began to sound as though I was going to burst at any moment. I told him everything, that I really cared for him, and it really hurt me that he'd been lacked of care during his teenage childhood as his mum passed away when he was 16. I remember the picture of his mum he showed me from his wallet. I felt like life was unfair to him, and I'd so desire to give all my love to him. He told me he knows how to take care of himself, and that the decision he made was for the best for the both of us. Even if we were to date long distance, it would be hard. I understood this part. He left for Florida the next day, and we left without a bad note. To forget that night, it was hard. I did all that because I wanted the best for him, but in the end it was no good.