Help me, I'm obsessed with Sharapova's Backhand
Okay guys, this is gonna sound un peu bizarre, but please hear me out.
I am like massively obsessed with Maria Sharapova's backhand. I watch like at least 50 videos of her backhand every day, then I watch them in slow motion. I stand in front of my bedroom window with the Tv remote as my tennis bat and watch myself trying to replicate her stoke. Sometimes i will toss a sock in front of the remote to hit, sometimes cross court which is mine, and of course Maria's fave, but sometimes down the line too. Not only that, I dream about her backhand also. One time I dreamt that I was Maria and I got to hit a backhand cross court winner and it felt soo amazing.
Now you might think that this is a bit weird but its okay as it doesn't affect my life but the thing is there is more. For starters, my neighbour saw me doing backhands with the TV remote in front of my window (I don't have a mirror in my room because I have a fear of them). I'm frightened that the neighbours will tell my parents and then they will now about my obsession and try to find help for me.
But the worst thing of all is. I think that I'm actually kinda sexually attracted to Maria's backhand as well. I don't know if there is anyone else on the site that's had this problem? Maybe it's just a tennis fan thing. But anyway I've started using backhand slow mo's as a replacement for porn. I confided this to my best friend and he was very freaked out.
What advice can you give me? I have backhands on the brain.